Grow. What is holding you back? What is fueling your stagnation? What is influencing your sudden unbelief? What is distracting you from God’s Spirit and teachings? What has moved you so strongly that you would deny God? What could possibly be worth it? I can understand that in our humanity we get angry and upset with God. His ways are beyond our comprehension and His methods are too mysterious for our senses and human form to bear. I understand how scary that can be. But what really is persuading you away from God? Who is making you think otherwise about God? What must have happened to you? Even though you have tasted of His glory, basked in His Presence, and have had undeniable encounters with Him, you have had decided to withdraw from Him. What is elevating itself above God in your heart and thoughts? You never used to be this way. It’s time for you to turn around and grow.
I know, His cup is not easy to drink from, but remember, that cup comes with His Presence, grace, mercy, unconditional love and faithfulness. Is it a new job? Perhaps you are disappointed about something you think He should have done for you, but you are still waiting, so you are angry? Come on, you know it’s not like that. You know that He works with precision and that when His timing and the reasons why He does not do a thing are different from what you want, it is all about the purpose for your life and it’s all for your own good. You know very well that all that God does is for your betterment, not to harm, to hurt, injure, wound or damage you. His intentions and motives are always in your best interest. Where is your faith? Where is the depth of your love for Him? What happened to your trust in Him? Unless of course, you only wanted His miracles and signs and wonders, and not the knowledge and the fullness of who He truly is. Perhaps you wanted to enjoy the goods and now thinking that you have it all anyway, you reject The Giver of those goods. God is not your magician. What really matters more to you? Who God is, or are you only excited about what He can do for you? You know better. Grow.
Let me take another guess. Maybe you have a desire you want to pursue, but it is not the way or the will of God for your life. You are aware of His purpose for your life, you have discovered and tasted it, but now you want to make decisions for God about His purpose and blueprint which He originated and authored for your life. You very well know that you’ll need Him to bring it to its full power and glory, yet you want to run with it, and do with it as you please, away from its actual Source and Creator. You want to call the shots. How is that going to work? You are not wasting His time, you are wasting yours, because you know that His divine purpose in you cannot manifest in its true magnificence without Him. The path you have taken will lead to a dead end of unfulfillment, discontentment, and unsatisfaction. Divine purpose in you will cry out for its Maker, will yearn for His breath, will long for His touch, wisdom and power. Stop wasting your time. Grow.
You cannot work God’s Blueprint your own way. You are not ignorant to the truth that it is what He says and declares that will stand. He might even allow you to dance around a little bit in your rebellion. He is wise and patient and knows that even in your rebellious state, there are lessons you will learn from the experiences of your temporary rebellious condition. Your plans to turn away, to do as you want, to remain comfortable in the zone and level you are currently in, are useless but you are still pursuing them. As if you can fight God. It won’t last, and you know it. Once you have experienced God’s Divinity, you can’t go back to the way you were or the way things were. It will not work. Nothing will work outside Him. It would have been better to have not known God, than to come to the knowledge of Him and try to disconnect yourself completely from Him. That’s the simple truth. Not too long from now, you will begin to feel a painful emptiness, the beginnings of a life filled with the incessant cry of your spirit, for Him and only Him. It will happen, it’s just matter of time. And when you come back to Him, He’ll let you know that He never missed a beat watching over you, even in your rebellious state. You can deny it, but you know you are missing Him and that life will never be the same without Him. It can’t, won’t be, because what can you possibly exchange for Him. What? Grow.
Listen, you are not doing anything new under the sun. Many of us have done the same. We have gone astray, sometimes ignorantly, sometimes on purpose, either through another’s influence, or by our own free-will. There are times when we have turned from God because we want to enjoy life, or so we say, we want to belong, or so we think, and we can fulfill our divine purpose our way with our own methods, strength and wisdom. Well, speaking for myself, I can tell you, I learnt hard, I learnt painfully, that it is indeed better to go through life with God than not. Now I want Him every second in my life, watching over every single step, every single decision. I want to be in the very center of His will, basking in His love, yielding to His Presence, no matter what I feel, think, hear, see, or what life brings. I’d rather be in His hands than the hands of Man. I would rather my mind, heart and spirit be in His care, than in the care of Man. Trust me, lessons well learnt! I am happy that, by His grace and mercy, I am still alive today, alive to tell you that of a certain, it is better to yield to God than your own wisdom, or to Man, or to the things of this world. Don’t bow to them, it’s not worth it. Grow. Grow, in Him. Grow.
Where is your certainty of Him? What shook the core of your belief and trust in Him? What happened? What is making you falter now? Look up. Ask Him for help. It’s enough. Stop. You know it’s not working, so don’t prolong it. Why are you torturing yourself? You have two obvious choices which will have inevitable consequences. Choose God and enjoy His consequences or choose to live your life as you see fit and bear those consequences. There is no way that anything else will work out for you when you have been with Him, when He has unfolded and revealed His divine purpose for you, to you. Nothing else can take its place. Nothing. It’s just not possible. Someone else who has not had your experience in Him might say it is possible, but that’s the point. They have not had the experience but you have, and you know better and you know differently. Where are you going to run? Where are you going to hide? What, who, are you going to hide in?
He’s here. Turn around and give in to Him and grow in your purpose. I used to turn away too. I would run away from my divine purpose. I was scared, afraid of the calling that comes with purpose, petrified of the responsibility for people’s live. Now, my prayer is, LORD let me fulfill your purpose in my life before I take my last breath. And so here I am. Growing. I’d rather die and find out that I did not have to believe in God and Jesus after all, than die and find out that I really should have but now it’s too late, and so I grew, and I am still growing, and will continue to do so, non-stop. Like you, I have tasted and I have seen, and I have lived the opposite, walked the other way. No good. Grow.
Did you do something that you think or have been made to believe that He will never forgive you for? Some preachers and churchgoers are usually good at doing that to people. They are very good at making dark and condemning pronouncements over people’s lives. Already feeling guilty about their lives, their actions, and carrying the burden of shame, the people walk away and turn away from God. Are you one of those people? Did you forget that you are not looking up to Man but to God? Obviously, they have forgotten the God who they serve, the God who tells us to judge not, so that we not be judged. They have forgotten that, therefore now there is no condemnation. In their own spiritual pride and arrogance they have forgotten the God who told us to take the log out of our own eyes before we take out the twig in our brothers’ eyes. They don’t know Him, because if they did, they would understand that He will leave the ninety-nine for the one soul. You, are that one soul. Come back. Change your condition. Grow.
Perhaps you are not hearing Him anymore. You’ve gone to places, done things, that make you ashamed to come into His Presence? Don’t allow people, culture and tradition, all that glitters, to stagnate you. Don’t become limited. You have everything you need to grow and expand. Have you given up on who God is and what He has for you? Where are you going? What do you want? What exactly are you looking for? When did His light in you die out? Allow it to shine in you and through you again. Grow.
Remember where you have been with Him. Remember how you have walked with Him. Remember the times He came through for you, time and time and again. How can you forget? Why are you still where you are? What are you doing? Why are you still doing the things that you do? Admit your error and come back t Him. His mercy will prevail and you will be His Joy. Grow.
Growing is painful. It means you have to shed some things, walk uniquely, think differently and speak differently. It is not possible to fit in, as you grow in Him. We can try, but it will not work. Physically we walk this Earth, but in our minds and in our spirits we are operating in God’s kingdom, where, thankfully, He has the last say. He does not flip flop, He is not a yo-yo. There is no confusion about how He has set up His kingdom. There is no question, the results that come into one’s life when we yield to His reign. So many things, so many people, the dictates of the world system, have ruled over us, and look at how we have turned out. Look at what we have become, because of Man’s free-will. Is that what you want? Is that how you want to live?
Time to grow. Grow. Grow. Grow.
Depend on Him. Grow. Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. ~Proverbs 3:5 (NLT)
Trust in Him. Grow. For this reason, even though I suffer as I do, I am not ashamed; for I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him for that day. ~2 Timothy 1:12 Berean Study Bible
Be determined. Grow. Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame. ~Isaiah 50:7 (NIV)
God is with you. Grow. The LORD will fulfill His purpose in me. O LORD, Your loving devotion endures forever–do not abandon the works of Your hands.~Psalm 138:8 Berean Study Bible
God will complete His work in you. Grow. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 1:4-6 (NIV)
Take your salvation seriously. Grow. Therefore, my beloved, just as you have always obeyed, not only in my presence, but now even more in my absence, continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling. ~Philippians 2:12
Grow. Grow. Grow.